big day tomorrow..day of silence! also the day i get piked on the most..i dont really care as long as they dont start anything im fine..i dislike many ppl at school...they think that if they push me far inuf they 'll get a reaction out of me..i came back from the hospital and found out that they took out his plak...his monorail plak! i went berserk and got suspended for 3 days..lame

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this lady told me that Jesus would find me....i dint have the heart to Tell her i don't belive..hah..heart....get it? hahah the one thing i need
its cold in here and the dam machine wont shut up!
ping-----------------------ping----------------------------------------------ping
i tried making a beat to it...still dint help i tried terning of the machine..the nurses rushed in and caught me red handed..literally
i cut my palm with the hinge of the bed.....they hesitated to go near me..they had to go for gloves..
ha

back at the hospital -.-

hate the freaken lights !
i can count 19 lights
19 before i get sent to the emergency room
19 lights that are still bright over the countles times ive been in the same situation..
19 is the time they give me to die... i wount beat 20
ironic isnt it :D
i just want the dam trail of them to end
waking up in the same room with the same pic over my head..this place is tring to be warm and friendly..it just gives me the creaps

ther was this little group of kids running around in there robes....i asked my self...do they knw ther gana die?
"im late..im teribly late for tea, the queen will have my head! im late im late" ...y does this litle girl fallow me?
is she the reaper?

incarnation

i believe in reincarnation that our bodies are just shells . are spirits flow and find a different shell .
i think they go threw stages and stuff so one day i would be i would be reincarnated to another shell i wounder if id remember any thing?
what do u think?

lost my pants

i looked every wher for my pants but they seam to be no wher to b found..its hot in "wonderland" and i refuse to wear shorts or skirts.
oh pants wher r thaw






oh i call this one almost spring even though i took this one in the fall

time

seams that every one thinks time is something that is needed but in reality time is just a figment of are imajination
think about it.
time is just are way of knwing what point in the day we r
right nw im at point 11'29
to me "time" is just like segments of ppls life like a film that can be posed and rewind and some times even fast forwerd.

missing you

is it selfish to say i miss u?
you said only 5 minuets.....its been more then 5 minutes..and u haven't opened your eyes yet.
you lie still as ur bodies warmth grows colder.
its been more then 5 minutes and u won't wake up.
my memories are canvases, some of the memories fading as i grow..some blank for the ones that have been wiped out , meant to be forgotten and some are new for the new memories that are waiting
its been more then 5 minutes and u still are sleeping,
its been more then 5 months and I've come to forget what you sound like..its fading in my head, i can still remember what you said to me..and i play it back over and over in my head,
its been more then 5 months
"let me sleep for 5 minutes OK, wake me up after 5 minutes..." you said
"only if u promise you'll wake up" i said
"love you" you said as you fell dreamt away
your such a lier
its been more then 5 minutes
and you haven't woken up yet..