eh~

my mind is in another place.....wher was it at before that made it change :/
eh~
sometimes i feel eh~
hard to explain...
my chest feels tight
my body feels heavy
but i have to do something
or i think ill explode
so i runn
i runn as fast as i can
but i dont seam to go anywhere...
have u ever felt like that?
like ur tring so hard to get somewher but u end up not moving
so u try 2x as hard n get further then u wer before then geting anywher?
but then i think......if it takes me trying hard to stay wer im at
and 2x as hard to go back
if i do nothing will i go ahead?
but life doesnt work like that :/

or does it?
if i dont do anything im not running...y was i running in the first place?
oh thats right!
cuz ill explode...but y would i explode ...cuz my body goes haywhire
it something i cant cantrol
i have to move
i have to stop the feeling

but if i run 2x n go back n run hard i stay wer i am then how do i stop if i dont run i go further then wher i was...hoow do i stop?
is stoping wher i want to b ?

sorry im rambeling
@,@

thez r things i think about wen i cant sleep