so im e=reading this manga and kids my age and younger are having intimit relationships. in this one manga this chik is 12 and already had 13 kisses and 3 guys fighting over her. wtf. and i think back..was i like this back in 9th grade....yes....sadly >< but not at 12 0r 11 dam its weard to pikture some one my little bros age making out with some one and telling them they love them >< idk thats just me..><

thxgiving

its Thanksgiving....what makes it so different from any other day?

just eating and pigging out...lame
me ? I'm not having a thxgiving..I'm the only one still in wonderland...the rest of my family is in another kingdom to far away to retch.

so I'm spending it at my dads place......lame i know.......I'm in a place of wonderland i love... but i cant go any where...its like I'm in a cage..watching ppl go around.. i cant touch them talk to them they cant c me...but i can c them from up here...i c who are the regulars. who come in and out of my favorite bakery, i c a pigeon standing in the balcony... but they cant c me.... if i press my hand to the tinted glass even tho I'm so close to them in the out side i cant reach them..i icant make friends...i cant b with family...I'm hear in the part of wonderland i love.and i can not love it. instead I'm in a cage.. watching ppl love it...its very sad.
I'm alone in the condo... my dad and his wife and kids that are nothing and mean nothing to me, are away some where i choose not to be...their not my family. their his family. I'm just an outsider crashing their happiness. y I'm hear ? y I'm not with my mum and sister and brother and her husband and my family?
I'm going to valenter in a soup kitchen today...but they emailed me saing theirs no room for me to volunteer...lame

happy thxgiving

my laptop charger broken and it's a drag. i have to go all ghetto and tape it together. my rents say they'll get me a new one but they don't get that i don't want them to get me things sure u may b asking wwtf is wrong with me not wanting things from the rents ? but I'm independent, Ive been that way since pre-pre school .

so i find it demeaning and wrong to ask my rents for money or a ride some where.

being independent is hard now do to my rents apposing me getting a job.
apparently they think sincere their the rents they have to get me things and provide me with things

just 2 days ago i got a new fone...y ? idk they just gave me a new one. their was nothing wrong with my old one....my rents are weird like that.. it lame but i dont unappreciated it.

but back to the point my chargers broken and it cost $60 to replace!!! and im not about to swalow my pride and ask for money


for those who read.. what do u think i should do?

him

what does it mean to b afraid?
how does it show?
is it fear that keeps him away fro me?
what is their to fear?
is it fear that makes him so droned to me?
what if i disappear?
will he have something to fear?
will he be lonley?
would he fear that to?

sky

hi

my porn!!

so manga fox is down again == ahahahhaha! argargarg!! >< i cant see my porn !!! lol jk i cant read my manga TT,TT
this is how i feel wen i cant read on mangafox

lame

so it seams that my story hasn't attracted many ppl in deviantart....TT,TT but it cool ill try to post it in my blog. i want ppl to look at it and feel like they've taped into something you knw? i knw its lame ><

HELP

i don't knw how to look at other blogs... dos any one knw? the ppl that can c me? can you help me out (><)

IM A BIRD? NO A VAMP!!

i find my self taking more and more pics of the sky. do i want to go some where? i like clouds. its the little things in life that get ppl threw the day. i especially like days after a rain storm when  things seam to b better. purer, at the peak of there lives.

no one knws the white rabbit.

this place is new to me.  >< ive never had a blog before, i like photography so ill be putting my pics of my favorite places. 

no one knws the white rabbit. this says alot about me. dos any one realy now any one? them selves?